Remember to breathe

Remembering to breathe is something I repeat to myself often.  I have a tendency to get overwhelmed with everything & forget to relax & let things happen as they are supposed to.  Some say it is about letting go of control, I am still deciding ;) I was driving back from the dentist yesterday & a song came on the radio.  I was in a great mood & in less than 20 seconds, I had tears streaming down my face.  I don't know what the hell happened.  On the way back to the office, I passed the cemetery & decided I would stop.  I sat in my car by mom, Karen & Joe's graves and cried and cried some more.  After that, I attempted to pull myself together & go back to work (quickly walking in & shutting the  door!)  What caused it?  The song on the radio or the poem I read that morning or the stress I am putting on myself?  Who knows, but it was the strangest thing.  All the while it flows back to my remembering to breathe.  I need to remember that I am not alone in this world & have a great group of friends & family.  All I need to do is reach out to them.  They may think I am crazy, but that's okay, because I am a little crazy (hopefully in a good way!)

Another reason I need to remember to breathe is this whole swimming thing! Back in January, I went to a swim clinic. Since then I have been trying (and succeeding!) to get to the pool twice a week.  Freestyle is not as easy as it looks.  There are times when I want to go back to swimming breast stroke, but I try not to for more than a few strokes.  Initially, I was getting panicked about breathing (or not breathing at all) and trying to exhale & inhale in the seconds my head was above the water.  Then there was the whole inhaling under water - yeah, that doesn't work so well.  Needless to say I was getting no where fast with that.  I will continue working on it because I want to get better.  Not going to make any excuses, I am just going to put my head in the water, push off & work on remembering to breathe! Or is it exhale?

Have a great day & remember to smile, it makes people wonder what you are up to!